Partial Letter to Poline from Arnold
March, 1914 perhaps
I don’t think about anything but being with you. In my next letter, I am going to write how much money we are going to have. Because I am quitting on the 15th of April, I am demanding not only severance but also a percentage of interest. But Shilka, the scoundrel, wants to give me less, about 20 or 25 rubles less, but God damn him. I am telling them that I need money badly, but they don’t know for what. Literally, I do not understand by the way what kind of satisfaction are you looking indifferent old life? Why are you so pessimistic and so skeptical? I don’t know. Please quit all of those thoughts. I am yours till the grave, and I cannot live without you. The separation is going to end soon as well as our suffering. I talked to my cousin today over the phone that he cannot stop at Kishinev, so I have to go to the village and to offer him this combination I wrote to you yesterday that I am going to Odessa for Russian Easter, and then I am going to the village for two days, the 6th and the 7th of April. Then I will have to choose another time to go to Odessa. You tell me in your postcard that I promised a letter, but there is no letter. It cannot be like that. If I make a promise, I keep it. The postcard is showing that soon is going to be the 12th, and soon Uncle Ooch is going to be by Aunt Polinka. She is longing for him and he for her. The light is coming from far away, not very slowly but fast with big steps and with hot heart, but the way is going to be long. I wrote to you already, and I would continue writing, but I can’t. I have a headache and pain in my legs, so I am not able to sit. you have no idea how hard I work. nonstop working. I am very happy that your father’s business is getting better and I envy you that you have work around the house for Easter, but please take a rest, get well, because you know which way I love you. Please tell me one more time, how many letters and postcards you received from me. With my hot feelings and all my strength, I hug you and I kiss you many, many times. Be healthy until I see you again. Uncle Ooch or ha ha ha. I am afraid of your fist and sincere greetings to yours.