Postcard to Poline from Aron
March 23/5, 1914
No envelope extant
Kishinev to Paris
Rue Vieille du Temple 41
Sunday March/April 23/5, 1914 11:oopm
The beauty of my life, as water is the beauty of nature! Finally I am writing you a letter, my lovely dear darling Polinka. Please understand that I don’t have any opportunity to write. I only sent cards. I am writing this time and I feel tired as a dead person, three weeks working 15-16 hours a day, and don’t even have fifteen minutes to sit. Besides it is dirty in here and no fresh air. It is really tiring. Like today, I worked for 15 hours behind the closed doors. I barely can sit now because I feel pain around my heart and dryness in my mouth and I am dizzy as if I am drunk. And I’m trying to use the rest of my strength to write a letter to you because I feel something reading your letters I have to respond to – one March 28th and one March 30th and I also received your card. Let me put things in order. How are you feeling? What’s wrong with your stomach? I don’t understand you, Polinka. How come you are sick each time? It is so painful to hear you are not taking care for yourself and I am praying God and I am asking you to get well. Whatever bad thoughts you have, send them to the devil. I don’t want you to suffer. I couldn’t sleep last Saturday at all thinking about you and would go crazy and next morning I sent you that card. Damn it. You left such good memories that I will never forget you. I feel like we talked yesterday and I still feel like you’re kissing me and my lips are still wet. I feel [something] in my heart like I hug you just right now. I am only writing when you’ll come to me and all the time I am under the influence of what happened. My God, when is it going to end? I can’t suffer any more. I can’t talk about my feelings any more since it is difficult for me to talk about it. Our Easter is ending and Easter on the 19th of April and I’m going to quit on the 15th of April, so you can envy me what I am going to feel. How will I go abroad? What to decide? I don’t know. Please write, Polinka, to me how is it going on the border? Do they check the passports? Do they check the signature in the passport? I think that I am going without a passport. I am receiving all of your letters and cards and I am asking you to write to me because only your writing supports me. I don’t understand 24/9 letter got lost and that’s why I am asking you to date every letter you write and I am going to do the same. I remember I wrote to you in that letter about Tsillie, Orjakhovski, and about my aunt. Please tell me, did you receive that letter? Answering the questions in your March 30 letter, I am asking you to come down because I can’t live without you, like a fish without water. That’s why I am running to you, to my lovely friend to whom my life belongs. As soon as it will become possible I am trying to come to you. I don’t want to think about what is going to happen later on, but I badly want to hug you, feel your lips, look at you. I would give everything for such a king of pleasure. Write Saturday and Sunday what happened. Why did you destroy that letter and share it with me? You only love my cards. My God, I am sending you everything, my heart, my soul, my eyes, and my lips. I am going to listen to you and go to bed. I also hug my lovely aunt and I kiss her for or because she hugs her Galinka when she doesn’t love her liar because I am bitter and my aunt is sweet because she calls herself old lady and call her young and clean and the whole Paris knows about it. Tell me, isn’t it true? I am very happy that you are reading newspapers from Paris. You can learn what the real life is, but I don’t read anything at this time. Used to read N.B., but not at this time. I am writing a few words in newspapers can they [something] and please tell me if they abroad received those? Can they confiscate them? Please tell me if they received those? Please don’t worry if I am not going to write to you during these days. Will be sending postcards and please write letter to me. Please say hi to everyone at your house. I kiss you one more time. Please continue living and wait until you are in Paris and you and I will be walking outside of the city and you will enjoy it because we have everything ahead. You wrote to me that you received postcard 15/28 and you also received the one dated 13/26. Please answer if you received the card dated like this or if it got lost. Please tell me each time you receive them since I am writing down each date. Stay happy and healthy. A big hug from me. I kiss you without stopping because you are my lovely gir. I kiss your Lips.
I sent a newspaper today and a card. Did you receive those? In my postcards I am writing a little bit more freely. Should I continue or not?