Letter to Poline from Aron
March 12, 1914
Kishinev to Paris
Rue Vieille du Temple 41
My friend. I am going to be short today because I am dead tired, and I even can’t sit. Finally, I received your lovely letter and I learned about your health. I am very happy that you are healthy. My wishes to you are to stay for ages like that. The loneliness, the separation from you, the longing is unbearable for me. They have taken half of my life away from me. I have become very sad so that everybody who sees me is asking the same question: “What’s wrong with you?” And my answer is pain in my soul and longing for my best friend (but I can’t tell anybody the truth). I can reject everything, food, sleep (I don’t sleep any more anyway), but I need your letters every day. Nothing but your letters are supporting me and are a nourishment for me. And please imagine if you didn’t write to me for 8 days, it means I was hungry for 8 days. Is it possible to do something like that for your friend, Arnoldushka. Huh, is it?????????? Today when the mail man delivered your letter to Tsillie and it hit me like a bullet in my heart because I thought there is a possible letter from which I can read at 12:00 at night. Just picture that happy moment when I will be reading your letter. Now I am answering your questions. Why do your surroundings bother you so much? Let it go. look at it through your fingers. Don’t take it personally. Behave as if you are a stranger because you will be a stranger to them soon. It is going to be better for you and for me. It is very sad that your father doesn’t have a job and there are unpleasant events in your apartment. But what can we do about it? Possibly everything will be better soon and we will be living happily. Don’t get sad. Be healthy and get well. I will come soon. I will have to serve here for one month and five days, which means I am going to quit on the 15th of April. So by the first of May, I will be with you in your arms. Don’t worry about the shipscard. I am going to get it no doubt. But in case if I don’t get it, I have a few rubles from my Mom and I am going to take those with me. I would have had this card already, but when my younger sister came, she made them wait for my answer. I, of course, gave my strong answer already that I am going to come. I think that [?] by a certain period [?] all of them will come. I doubt it if Gutman is going to go with us always. He doesn’t have enough money and apparently, he will be going to America directly. I only want to cross the border with him, because it looks like I am going to go without a governor’s passport. My dear friend, I think about always the same way you think about me during day and night when I sleep and when I don’t. You are always in my head. In our friendship, which didn’t last long, we had those moments that I will remember until I die, and that’s why I am suffering now and that is why my soul wants to be with you. I am going to tell my Mom in two weeks before I leave about my leaving. Then she knows that I love you and that I am going to you to Paris. It is very convenient to receive postcards from you, and I can ask you to send me more postcards, my dear friend, and please write every day to me. No doubt I am not going to be Edison, but I will be seeing you soon. If I make any mistakes in
French, forgive me because I didn’t study French. Instead, I know Latin very well. Then my old lady I love it so much when you make jokes in your letters that I am asking you to repeat them. I kiss you for that. I am telling you that you are tidy, and I am screaming from this room to Paris. you are tidy, you are tidy, you are good. And even more loud, you are neat. Are you going to touch my ears for that? Even if you are going to do that, I am going to send my ears to you in this letter. Please write to me if you received all of my letters, especially if you received the letter dated 25/9 on Monday. I am very worried because you didn’t mention anything about that letter, and you didn’t answer to that letter. I am sending letters to you every day. Besides, I am sending cards and newspapers. Then I received a card from you yesterday. Please tell me if you received that picture and if you like it. I am longing for you, and I want to see you soon. I have no single minute when I am at home that your picture is not in front of me to look at and to enjoy. I kiss you. Stay healthy. Always yours, Arnold.
[Note: This letter may have also contained a postcard, as there is one with the same date but no postmark on it: “Postcard from Aron to Poline March 12, 1914.”]